Yep, I Still Want a Donut

Well hello internet. Nice to see you again. Long time no talk. I just reread those blog posts from over three years ago. Good lord. I thought I was going to have time to read. That's pretty hysterical!

I remember our first week home from the hospital with Ava like it was yesterday. The pain from the c-section. The pain from the breastfeeding. The pain from no freaking lunch meat or alcohol for nine freaking months!  Holding that little girl in my arms made it all worth it. Becoming a mother has been one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I have experienced a new love that I didn't know existed. I have put others needs before my own, and I have learned so much in the last three years. It's truly incredible.

There is a huge problem that I need address though. Me. I need to pay attention to me. I get so wrapped up in everything going on around me, I forget that I still need to look out for me and what will keep this car running. 

As most of you know, I've struggled with my weight really my whole life. I am your true definition of a "foodie". I. LOVE. FOOD. In fact, I love it so much that some could call it an addiction. I constantly think about food. Sometimes when it's a food I'm craving all I can think is, well if I'm "dieting" or trying to lose weight, who knows when I'll get to have it again. Just one piece, just one bite won't kill me. But then, it tastes so good that you have to finish the serving or have another bite. I don't think it's bad when a person treats themselves once a month or every couple of weeks. People in good shape could probably handle a weekly treat. Literally, I find myself facing these struggles several times a week, if not every day.  When Fat Amy says the Fat Heart quote in Pitch Perfect, I laughed out loud but seriously, some people really do have fat hearts, and it is a struggle!

The biggest setback to date happened this morning. I went on vacation last week. I thought I didn't do too terrible and then I weighed myself. Holy shit ($0.25 over to Mommy Needs a Swear Jar). I freaking blew it. I worked my ass off for 7 weeks before vacation to lose weight. One week of being out of control, and I'm basically starting at square one. Devestation and pissed off cannot even begin to describe how furious I am. The thing about weight loss is. I have no one to blame but myself. No one forced me to eat those chocolate chip cookies or that hamburger.  It's all on me. I'm the only one that can fix this hot mess that I have made out of the only body I have.

The point of this whole thing is not a pitty me post or a bitch fest. I want everyone to know that if you are struggling with weight loss and body images, if you look in the mirror and are so completely disgusted with yourself that you avoid them on purpose, if you literally have no clothes to wear because you hate shopping because of how you look, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Come on this journey with me. Let's be healthy together. I'm not selling any fitness products. I'm not doing a fad. I want to be healthy. I want to find me.

Who's going to join me?

-A

P.S. Wow, I just reread the title. I talked myself out of that donut ;)

Book Worm Post: 2012 Reading Challenge

Ok, so after graduating from Missouri S&T in December, I realized how much I missed reading.  During school, I really didn't have time to read with all the homework, part-time jobs, and extra curricular activities.  I absolutely LOVE reading.  Now that I no longer feel guilty about reading, I can finally enjoy a good book.

I stumbled across this great site called Goodreads (www.goodreads.com).  It's a great way to keep online reading lists of what you have read, what you are reading, and what you want to read.  They also have challenges that you can set for yourself.  At first, I wanted to do 100 books this year, but once I got to reading, I realized that getting myself back into the swing of reading, 100 books might be too many.  I could have easily read that much during high school.  In college, I would get so burnt out from studying, I would rather go hang with friends, watch a movie, etc.  I had very little desire to read.  It was a really weird feeling considering I loved to read so much as an adolescent.  Basically, the point of this post is to invite you into the world of reading with me.  I have a widget on the side of my page that shows the challenge that I'm doing through Goodreads.   --------------->

I'm also keeping a timeline on my computer.  Here is what I have read so far:

Goal: 25

Actual: 12

January

1. One for the Money by Janet Evanovich (1/16)

2. The Doctor's Wife by Elizabeth Brundage (1/21)
3. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (1/25)
4. Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins (1/28)

5. Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins (1/29)

April

6. Divergent by Veronica Roth (4/10)

7. Matched by Ally Condie (4/17)
8. Crossed by Ally Condie (4/18)

May

9. Insurgent by Veronica Roth (5/2)

June

10. Fifty Shades of Grey by E. L. James (6/23)
11. Fifty Shades Darker by E.L. James (6/27)

July

12. Fifty Shades Freed by E.L. James (7/3)

I took a break during February and March.  Jon was gone for training, and I had just found out I was pregnant.  It was not the easiest time for us, and my main concern was definitely not what book I was going to read that month.  According to Goodreads, I am on track with my goal.  I need to read at least two books per month for the rest of the year.  That is pretty manageable.  I am just so picky when it comes to what to read.  Eventually, I want to post book reviews/opinions on each book.  If you have any suggestions for a good read, feel free to comment below.  I am always up for some suggestions.

Until next time,

Peace. Love. and Babies.

What is the point of blogging?

I'm Angie.  A 23 year old, recently graduated, newlywed, soon-to-be mom that is looking for some sort of outlit.  So, I guess, in short, that's why I've turned to blogging.  I've had many family members tell me that they like Facebook because it allows them to keep in touch aka creep effectively, so why not blog as well?  I have a few different topics that I will explore on my blogging adventures. 

Recently, after having two Zeta little sisters and getting married, I have realized, I'm not that bad at crafting.  Some of these posts will have organization / fun DIY projects. 

I am also an avid reader.  Ask my husband.  I read all the time.  :)  Therefore, I will also have some book reviews and keep up with certain series news and authors.  I'm talking about the Hunger Games, Divergent, etc.  :) 

Lastly, for those of you who don't care about either of those things, I have a little girl coming in about 3 short months!  I will also be blogging about my child and what it's like to be a 23 year old mom. 

My husband and I have recently gone through a bunch of HUGE transitions in our lives in about a 2 month time span.  Talk about overwhelming.  Here's a chart.

December 17th - graduate from college & move
January 7th - wedding day
January 8th thru 15th - honeymoon (too much fun, obviously)
January 17th - I started my job
February 5th - Positive Pregnancy test
Febryary 6th - Hubby started his job

Talk about a jam packed first month of marriage.  Hopefully, through this journey, I can read some good books, make some awesome projects, and appreciate what's most important - my family.

A piece of exciting news we have coming up this weekend is crib shopping and our 3D/4D ultrasound!!  We are beyond excited to see some of Princess's features and movements.  I'll post pictures later. 

Until then,

Peace. Love. and Babies.  :)